Maybe I'm just looking in the wrong spots, but seriously. Never once have I seen a web page or a book about coping with the insecurity of not knowing how I'm going to pay for diapers, much less how I'll deal with sports gear, music lessons, field trips, family vacations, college educations, first dates, heartbreaks, car accidents, and about a thousand other things I can think of that I can't afford, or just plain scare me.
Well, I may not have the answer, but I have found a way to cope: Moments.
Like when that one song comes on the radio (for me, it's the one about having a kid just like me), the whole world kind of pauses.
Or when I made the latest ultrasound image the background on my phone. When I see some random athlete or celebrity win something, and thank his or her parents for all the support.
Or, better yet, when, last week, I heard that perfect heart beat 150 times in a minute, and I successfully fought back tears.
And when the doctor told us everything was fine even though Mommy's blood sugar has been a little whacky.
Every one of those things is a Moment. I look for them every day, and they help keep me grounded. Sometimes, the Moments are easy to find, sometimes they're damn near impossible. But they're there. So keep looking, and keep finding them. Your sanity may depend on it. I know mine does.
Pregnancy status:
14 weeks today.
26 weeks to go.
Status: Just a little smaller that the iPhone I used to find this out...around 3.5 inches from head to bottom
Daddy's Little Genius? Almost, but not quite. This week's development is highlighted by rapid brain growth. Still a few years before I have to remember trigonometry though...
Interesting Fact: Our first OB appointment was a success, complete with a printed ultrasound picture!
Next week: More doctors.Less sleep. More Moments.
Soundtrack: Brad Paisley, Dierks Bentley, and, oddly enough, Our Lady Peace